A Year Later & IDK

A year ago today I first saw a doctor for wheezing that had started the prior day. I was given a prescription for an inhaler, reminded to keep my asthma medications up-to-date and told to follow up with my regular doctor of things didn’t improve.  And things have not improved.

A year later ‘I don’t know”:

  • if it’s carcinoid 
  • if it’s carcinoid and something else 
  • if it’s something else 
  • if the next doctor will have the answer 
  • when I I’ll feel better
  • if I will feel okay tomorrow 
  • why I have break through symptoms 
  • why my lab work looks okay when I feel so nasty 

A year later I do know:

  • God is who He says He is. 
  • God will do what He says He will do. 
  • Faith is easier said than done. 
  • I’m a battle weary warrior – struck down but not destroyed.
  • Often, on the other side of my smile, there’s a dam of tears and if one leaks out….I’m done for, no Dutch boy’s finger in the dike gonna stop them. 
  • If I don’t read the Word and listen to uplifting songs, I am absolutely, totally consumed and overwhelmed.  So…

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