Last Tuesday as I was praying about my appointment, God impressed upon me that I needed to ‘lay my Isaac down’–my desire for an answer was surpassing my desire for a relationship with Him.
How do I do that? Show me the steps…what does a sacrifice of a desire for an answer look like? Seriously, I’ve been seeking an answer for decades…this is nearly embedded in me. Don’t you know I think and process A LOT?
Friday, as I was driving to Minnesota for a wedding, still marinating in my frustration and disappointment, I was listening to some teachings on Youtube that were encouraging but didn’t help me resolve the “I don’t know what this is, but let’s do another test and refer you to another doctor” mantra I’d heard. Saturday morning the flavor of disappointment was pretty much permeating me, so I searched Youtube specifically looking for ‘laying Isaac down’. God led me to “Bill Johnson How to Overcome Disappointment.”
Yep–I’m disappointed, so Billy Boy whatcha gonna tell me about how to lay my Isaac down, because that IS NOT title of this video.
Oh God…you are so sweet and consistent and faithful and your revelations to me are amazing and surprising and I love it!!